Grumbles & Memories

the true side.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010 10:34 PM

This two are the pictures of my post today.

A Stormy Field.

A Peaceful Field.

wondering why that two pictures?
because...
those two are the pictures representing my mood nowadaes.
most people who dun experience dental treatment will nt understand how i feel..
but those who do. will understand perfectly what i mean.
trust me or not, my body recognise the pain it goes thru when going thru a treatment..
the fear of going thru that pain is constantly in my head..
thats why recently I have been kept on craving for sports..
but i cant really go to my parents and cry to them.. saying im scared of the pain..
because my parents will jus say i brought upon the pain by myself..
but the truth is......

my heart is fearing the pain a lot a lot... till the point of freaking out..
i need to overcome a lot just to make myself go to the dental clinic..
i wonder how long it will take to rid myself of this constant fear which has turn to become such a huge stress..
im afraid. i am. because im jus a ordinary human being who is fully capable of fearing for pain.. especially the injections to the gum..
and now.. i need to attend a surgery to remove the small teeth cos its alr a useless teeth..
when i had noodles just now with my fake teeth..
trust me, it felt like hell.
i couldnt bite the noodle at all. and when i realise tat, i almost cried.
i dun really know whats the road ahead of me in my life..
but i promise myself.. i'll walk on , no matter how painful it is.

fake teeth.

12:14 AM

Monday , 8th Jan 2010..
went to watch the movie above with sotong :D
overall rating... 4 out of 5 stars!
the plot is interesting & touching :D
thanks sotong for introducting me to the movie!
hahas..
went to eat aston with sotong after tat.. yummy yumm~
after munching, we headed off walking to bugis..
joked abt the flirting area at singapore art muesum!
damn funny.. middle of nowhere somemore..
well.. overall , really did enjoy the day..
thank you alot SOTONG :D muacks!
before meeting sotong,
went to dentist..
instead of my crown.. they discover a multiple fracture in my tooth..
and crowning become impossible for it..
so.. they put a temporary teeth so that at least i look nice for CNY..
which was totally not required and... very troublesome.
cause its not allow to bite ANYTHING at all..
if not it will drop..
and i cant imagine hw pain that will be... :(
so... now i eat with damn caution until i dun really feel like eating =.=

Tuesday , 9th Jan 2010..
went sch in the afternn..
took my excel test which is done quite accurately~
lucky me.. first attempt in a pivot table thingy and answer shld be correct :D
happy happy~
after sch.. went for gym with sis.. and had mac as dinner..
which is oso my only meal in the whole day because...
eating has become a troublesome thing to me right now.. =/
well.. super tired now..
going to sleep soon.. tmr gonna be another long day i guess..
sweet dreams! :D

CHAMPIONS

Sunday, February 7, 2010 6:26 PM

YAY :D

Xcapade is the SHRI 2010 ITE/JC Category CHAMPIONS! :D

:D yipeeee!

I was so freaking nervous..

:D but I guess I did a presentation that I have never been able to..

its was a damn nervous day =/ when they annouce the 3rd and 4th winners..

we looked at each other and blurred..

then we realise we are either the 1st or 2nd!

fighting with SAJC.. =/

and when they annouce the runnerup is SAJC,

our hearts all skipped a beat! and believe it or not..

we were screaming a lot louder than the SAJC team because we realise...

we are the CHAMPIONS! :D

damn excitied till i cried =/

first time crying because of winning and not some thing sad.

:D hahas! the feeling was great~

although when we present,

we were nervous.. and the presentation got abit messy..

but nonetheless,

good job Xcapade! :D

I'm so glad we made it through~!!

soon we left the SMU building..

and was walking with dom to help him find cab.. cause..

he is carrying a extremely big gift basket from BRANDS! :D

well.. we ended up frm SMU to BUGIS's FU LU SHOU building.. =.=

crazy town that doesnt have any cab..

even if there is cab, they refuse to pick off from the road.

im like ' WTF ' , the cab drivers are always complaining no customer!

that is like super duper duper NOT TRUEEEE!

we braved the super hot weather and somehow made it..

had to call a cab in the end. =.= should hv done it from the start..

waste my time.. the cab fare is even better..

$20.80.

tat is how much it cost if I take cab frm sengkang to jurong with midnight charge.

well.. after all tat..

came home and was rather tired..

eat my late lunch and went to bed..

:D napped till night time then dota-ed away~!

monday going to get my front tooth done up :D

and then going out with sotong.. :D cant wait !

anyways, resigned from my work @ RC..

couldnt take the time constrain + low pay after all =/

gonna be free of the job in 1 month which is exactly when my holidays start..!

gonna go search for a new job already~ :D

woohoooos

Tuesday, February 2, 2010 11:22 PM

a new hairstyle :D

just got my hair chopped off today :D

wanted shoulder length. but thanks to my uniform...

it become collar length =/

but overall, i think it looks refreshing. :D

so yeah! new year, new resolution. :D

probably gonna keep short hair for quite some time :D

today project.

i blew my top off @ balqis and susan.

its time to speak my mind.

i seriously BTH.

please speak ur mind if u BTH me too k. :D

arghhh.

it feels better after speaking all the shit that is in my mind.

its hard being understanding and sensitive.

i can be sensitive and understanding but when u take me for granted,

i can really be a insensative and emotionless brat. :D

dun blame me when tat happens cos u asked for it. buahahahs.

and this post is 100% TRUE.

nice people oso have their limits.