Grumbles & Memories

mixture of two feelings.

Sunday, January 31, 2010 3:46 AM

saturday, 30 Jan 2010.
since the year started,
i have not had a decent saturday.
i checked back my posts.
seriously not a decent saturday.. until i was thinking is it a curse.
but i have been shown that it is not a curse.
if it is, someone alr broken the curse.
well.. the whole thing is..
my long awaited saturday.. was destroyed.
thanks to huiru jie.
make me so excited abt it. blarblarblar..
ended up? u abandoned me.
u had no idea how disappointed i was.
u had so much time to tell me beforehand.
and u waited till i asked u. which is less than 24 hrs to the outing.
i turned people's outings down. becos of?
becos u told me of the outing. and i really like hanging out with the people..
in the end? my anticipation were completely destroyed.
slept and woke up in a damn emo mood..
was damn moody. wondering why was my saturdays all crappy.

till Ariah's sms came and somehow saved me.
met up her with @ bedok..
then we went to macdonald near Nyessa's place..
and then 2 cousins of Ariah's bf came..
and we played monopoly deal :D
its a wonderfully addictive card game..
and i really like it a lot..
they made me laugh so much..
sorry i was quiet most of the times..
was thinking through some stuff.. hahas..
thanks for asking me along..
u really save me frm getting more and more moody rotting myself away @ home..

friday, 29 Jan 2010 :D

went out with Kylie..

wanted to watch movie but time was too rush..

so we went to arcade instead..

after tat.. gideon came..

hais.. stuff happened..

i hope the sunflower manage to cheer u up..

sorry but serene really duno wat else to do alr..

then went to NYNY dinner with youth group..

had much fun and laughter there :D

jaleb and janna is so cute :D

hahas.. after the dinner..

went to watch Legion with Kylie..

the movie totally sucks!

its a movie with a lousy plot~!

2 out of 5 stars.

after tat... went home..

and realised huiru jie set me aeroplane for supposingly sat's night soho.

reason? cos it turned into a class outing so yea.

im like 'wtf. wadeva man.'

sorry to say. im arent that understanding as u think i am.

i can be understanding if u didnt wait till i ask u then tell me.

u had the whole freaking day to inform me.. and u didnt bothered to.

u make me so disappointed with u la. thanks for bringing my hopes high.

seriously thanks arh.

u make me wonder abt my priorities again.

disappointments.

Thursday, January 28, 2010 9:38 AM

Thursday

I just realise later got Hr Mock Test... never study yet... omgggg..

and never bring book somemore... OMFG!

Now in AOA class.. why am i so free while everybody is busy with their assignments?

because.. i got no textbook :(

susan never come cause she isnt feeling well..

and ariah probably never come because of overslept or smth..

now sitting alone.. day dreaming.. dazing.. wasting time away..

gonna have a new blog skin up by today :D

wanted to change it but cant seem to load the page @ sch..

probably do it when i reach home..

later after sch.. if ariah comes.. xcapade will go Jurong IMM to shopp..

for our event materials..

but if she never come.. i probably gonna go home sleep..

getting more and more tired recently..

cant wait for Friday and Saturday to come..

Friday going NYNY with kylie + youth group..

then going aunt's place at night..

Saturday shld be going out with Ariah, Nyessa they all :D

then at night gonna go SOHO with huiru jie and weibeng kor..

serene wants the rain to come.

please flood Singapore today.

Wednesday
Crazy long day.
Ariah came, Susan came too.
we did our LPD presentation..
and so unfortunately, we are the first team to present AGAIN~!!
hahas.. after the remaining groups presented..
finally can go home.. @ around 4pm+..
so so tired..
it was a long long day..
wanted to go swimming but found myself half dead.. way too tired..
so i just slacked at home.. and decided to replace my colleague for work..
had macdonald as dinner :D

Wednesday, January 27, 2010 9:34 AM

tuesday..
after sch was alr quite late...
went to meet Huiru Jie.. :D
went to eat Yuki Yaki with her.. :D
eat a lot of beef :D yum yumm..
terriyaki beef.. :D
the ball food all not nice one!
the cuttlefish, prawn, pork ball all... CMI. (cannot make it.)
well... the food was still great overall.. eat until damn damn fun~
then we had ice cream too! :D
made our own ice cream.. in the end, i had 5 different flavours!
it was deliciousss~ with wafer biscuits :D
we eat and eat for 3 hours+ in total.. amazing huhs..
eat until damn food.. went home and started doing projects..
ended upp.. by 12am+ finally manage to finish LPD ppt..
but i didnt sleep until 4am+ because the stress just kept me awake..
so many things to do.. so so little time..
the stress is KILLING meeeeee.. :(
just hope SAT & FRI will come~
its gonna be a dead fun weekend~ weeeheeee~ :D:D:D
pubbing & dinneerrr :D yippeee. time to unwhine before i explode!

mondayy.
went out with kylie after school :D
it was a day of fun and weirdness~
meet her and go to AMK Hub..
to book NYNY for this friday's dinner.. 20 people worth of seats ><..
hahas. its cfm gonna be a fun day this saturday~
went to crystal jade to see cakie cakie~
then.. at first she wanted to watch tooth fairy..
but Gideon was late.. and couldnt make it in time..
and Kylie was like super duper pissed. =/
and some crappy stuff happened @ toast box while we were eatingg..
after Gideon reacheed.... Kylie didnt talk to him at all sia.. =
it was damn weird.. im like stuck in the middle..
we walked around aimlessly.. and later head to Kylie's place..
then Chubby and Tiffy got into trouble ><..
and then Kylie get farther pissed.. =/
CHILL k :D serene is heree..!
then i went home.. was freaking tired.

longg week

Sunday, January 24, 2010 11:18 PM

well.. the weekends was spend at home.. resting and chilling :D
sunday went swimming.. although my leg and hand still hurt..
but i like it when swimming :D as if all the boundaries are all gone :D
feeling of freedommm!
hahas :D:D:D
after tat had lunch with family then went library alone.. :D
serene learn that.. friends & teammates cant really go hand in hand..
Ariah, im sorry that i made u sad :(
i really wanna make u happy always.
i wanna be ur happy pills too.

the above 3 photos.. :D

was taken on 22-Jan-2010 :D

went to my dentist appointment..

it was a painful trip :( damn pain..

gonna be going for another appointment in Feb to get my teeth done~

then went to meet Kylie.. had lunch..

and off we went to esplanade and saw a seashell exhibition :D

took couple of pictures with my lousy handphone camera :P

was quite pleased that the photos turn out not bad :D

gideon came.. then...

we had high tea at cookie muesum..

after tat.. we headed off to paya lebar and met kylie's mom..

for dinner @ aston.. after tat, we went to Kylie's youth group..

as usual, its fun being there :D the feeling is just good..

decided to go there more often from now on..

hopefully weekly :D

after tat went aunt's house then home sweet home after tat :D

bought cookies on thursday during breaktime.. before my group meeting :D

hahas. hope u guys liked it :D

SUBWAY COOKIES~

damn nice :D and highly addictive..

yummies~ :D alright.. thats for last week..

Monday, January 18, 2010 6:30 PM

thats my new ezlink card sticker :D cute bunny!
saw it on my way home and think its really really cute :P
hahas.. bought it and pasted it on my ezlink card..
today was having bad monday blues..
was late for half an hr for my HR class..
and the teacher was damn.... irritating..
he asked me a question and i duno the answer..
then he said ' go shopping for 30mins still duno the answer.. '
i was thinking 'wth..'
i was late because of my knee injury and the traffic jam. =.=
damn it.. this knee injury just make me so so tired everyday..
i guess cell regeneration makes people tired... and uses lots of energy...
yawnnns..
today is only monday.. how i wish tmr is friday alr. =x
siannn!

Saturday, January 16, 2010 11:32 PM

today. alot of shit happen. practically. since the last saturday i injuried myself..
everything have went haywired and shitty.
tmr maybe will write more..
todae i shld just let the quotes talk for me..
having a bad headache now.

loves

Thursday, January 14, 2010 11:20 PM

today.
ups and downs.
btw,
Xcapade which is my project team in school..
got into SHRI semi finals.
seriously, if we never win,
im alright with it.
because i can seriously see..
everyone is trying so hard in the team..
we are a team full of diversity. prehaps that is why we understand diversity and embrace it huhs.. :D

tis few days.. been busy in school..
busy with projects, competition & CA..
practically.. its a hell of a week..
been damn busy.. went thru plenty of bumps..
and finally friday is just tomorrow :D
highlights of this few days are....
lots of crap from people.. stares and gossips..
but i dun give a shit :D
say what u want. i dun wanna bother myself with it anymore.
Xcapade, thanks for all the help because of my partial handicapped... i have made the team suffer quite alot.. :D thanks and forgive me for getting injuried at such a wrong timing..
well.. tis few days.. i really start to see who is there.. and who is not..
hahas.. :D i understand my parents concern now.
fully understood!!

well.. i just hope the injuries heal much. today when i saw news @ 10.. the earthquake incident, i feel.. although im injuried but im a lot better than them.
god send me angels from above..
and one of them is a Malay man today. :D
he is really really nice..
i was limping my way to sch from bus stop and there is a mosque nearby my sch..
he offered me a ride all the way to the foyer area of my sch.
although he didnt know who i am,
he trusted me to let me board his car. and even took the extra trouble.
i seriously appreciate that :D thanks for making my day.
rest of the day was quite horribly painful...
my knee wound acted up alot today... couldnt even stand still for a minute..
i hope everything will get better because i still have a presentation for SHRI competition tis saturday.. hope everything will proceed smoothly.
everyday. im presented with new challenges. and im glad i made it thru.
with the help of many :D

arghhh.

Monday, January 11, 2010 2:39 PM

another day of the nightmare..
wonder how long its gonna take for the nightmare to be gone.
my right hand is swelling.. and im worried.
but then... my fingers seem to be fine..
hope everything will heal up fast..
waiting for Kylie to buy lunch for me now..
tmr gonna go back to school already..
kinda worried how am i gonna get to sch..
and the stares on my face and wounds definately will have..
im kinda worried over all those minor stuff..
after shower.. the pain frm the wounds intensify..
and its freaking painful.. but i kept telling myself..
'endure it.. its healing'
later going to work..
im still wavering whether to go work or not..
but i cant run away and hide forever..
sooner or later.. i need to go out there.. show my face..
ignore the stares and get on with life..
at least until the wounds heal up...
mom is still damn worried abt the scaring..
im more afraid of the stares now..
dad knows what im afraid of.. but i seriously cant be running away forever..
i need to go out and show myself..
even if its gonna be stares and laughters..
i need to get over it.
god, please give me strength to get over all this stuff.

Sunday, January 10, 2010 2:37 PM

1st jan was my last post. till the very day. only ard 1 week have past. and many things have happened to me.
now im currently resting at home due to my freak incident.
knuckles are all wounded. right knee seriously wound. disfigured.
wonderful huhs.
it all happened because i went cycling.. and the bicycle jus went crazy.. and i flew off my bike..
literally flew like superman.. damage one straight line on the face. and lose 2 front teeth.
the pain didnt make me cry on the spot..
it was the words i heard later on that made me cry.
i admit by me having this incident. it causes trouble to a hell lot of people..
but i guess.. someone injuried jus want to have concerns.
and not questions abt money money.. or project project..
but i guess thats what i am to them.
someone not worthy of their concerns.
the one that surprised me most was Ariah.
when i called her to let her know i wun be going to school because of my injuries.
her reply was 'orh. ok'
hahas. foolish me.. i was waiting for a word of concern and well. i got disappointed.
that was yesterday.
today.. i tried to take off the dressing..
and it hurts very badly.. my wound is still somehow producing water..
guess it must have damage the cells pretty bad..
as for my fingers..
typing wun be a problem but writing will i guess..
cant really grip something properly..
luckily i'll still be able to do the ppts required. if not,
alot problems will be caused to them..
and im jus a project mate to them afterall.
hahaha.
its damn sad to realise almost all the people around u..
are so... so superficial.
it hurts. i guess in this incident. the thing that hurt most arent my injuries.
its probably my heart.
hais. after tis incident..
i probably will stop cycling for some period of time.. at least until my knee fully recovers..
my parents are so worried abt the scaring and the tooth.. but to me,
they were the least of my concern.
monday gonna go dentist and see what he says..
probably gonna hv to remove them..
gonna be eating porridge for quite some time..
in this incident,
i can see who is the ones that care truly. and who are the ones that only care abt themselves.
but then.. i oso can see what damage my character actually did.
so i cant blame them. i can only blame myself for not being worthy.
and honestly, im sorry to all those i caused trouble for.
i guess. serene just died in the incident ytd.
now its another serene born once again.
hope something like tis wun ever happen agn.
becos it seriously hurts.

new year speaks of the previous year's end :D

Friday, January 1, 2010 5:22 PM