Monday, January 11, 2010 2:39 PM
another day of the nightmare..wonder how long its gonna take for the nightmare to be gone.my right hand is swelling.. and im worried.but then... my fingers seem to be fine..hope everything will heal up fast..waiting for Kylie to buy lunch for me now..tmr gonna go back to school already..kinda worried how am i gonna get to sch..and the stares on my face and wounds definately will have..im kinda worried over all those minor stuff..after shower.. the pain frm the wounds intensify..and its freaking painful.. but i kept telling myself..'endure it.. its healing'later going to work..im still wavering whether to go work or not..but i cant run away and hide forever..sooner or later.. i need to go out there.. show my face..ignore the stares and get on with life..at least until the wounds heal up...mom is still damn worried abt the scaring..im more afraid of the stares now..dad knows what im afraid of.. but i seriously cant be running away forever..i need to go out and show myself..even if its gonna be stares and laughters..i need to get over it.god, please give me strength to get over all this stuff.
