Grumbles & Memories

the true side.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010 10:34 PM

This two are the pictures of my post today.

A Stormy Field.

A Peaceful Field.

wondering why that two pictures?
because...
those two are the pictures representing my mood nowadaes.
most people who dun experience dental treatment will nt understand how i feel..
but those who do. will understand perfectly what i mean.
trust me or not, my body recognise the pain it goes thru when going thru a treatment..
the fear of going thru that pain is constantly in my head..
thats why recently I have been kept on craving for sports..
but i cant really go to my parents and cry to them.. saying im scared of the pain..
because my parents will jus say i brought upon the pain by myself..
but the truth is......

my heart is fearing the pain a lot a lot... till the point of freaking out..
i need to overcome a lot just to make myself go to the dental clinic..
i wonder how long it will take to rid myself of this constant fear which has turn to become such a huge stress..
im afraid. i am. because im jus a ordinary human being who is fully capable of fearing for pain.. especially the injections to the gum..
and now.. i need to attend a surgery to remove the small teeth cos its alr a useless teeth..
when i had noodles just now with my fake teeth..
trust me, it felt like hell.
i couldnt bite the noodle at all. and when i realise tat, i almost cried.
i dun really know whats the road ahead of me in my life..
but i promise myself.. i'll walk on , no matter how painful it is.

fake teeth.

12:14 AM

Monday , 8th Jan 2010..
went to watch the movie above with sotong :D
overall rating... 4 out of 5 stars!
the plot is interesting & touching :D
thanks sotong for introducting me to the movie!
hahas..
went to eat aston with sotong after tat.. yummy yumm~
after munching, we headed off walking to bugis..
joked abt the flirting area at singapore art muesum!
damn funny.. middle of nowhere somemore..
well.. overall , really did enjoy the day..
thank you alot SOTONG :D muacks!
before meeting sotong,
went to dentist..
instead of my crown.. they discover a multiple fracture in my tooth..
and crowning become impossible for it..
so.. they put a temporary teeth so that at least i look nice for CNY..
which was totally not required and... very troublesome.
cause its not allow to bite ANYTHING at all..
if not it will drop..
and i cant imagine hw pain that will be... :(
so... now i eat with damn caution until i dun really feel like eating =.=

Tuesday , 9th Jan 2010..
went sch in the afternn..
took my excel test which is done quite accurately~
lucky me.. first attempt in a pivot table thingy and answer shld be correct :D
happy happy~
after sch.. went for gym with sis.. and had mac as dinner..
which is oso my only meal in the whole day because...
eating has become a troublesome thing to me right now.. =/
well.. super tired now..
going to sleep soon.. tmr gonna be another long day i guess..
sweet dreams! :D

CHAMPIONS

Sunday, February 7, 2010 6:26 PM

YAY :D

Xcapade is the SHRI 2010 ITE/JC Category CHAMPIONS! :D

:D yipeeee!

I was so freaking nervous..

:D but I guess I did a presentation that I have never been able to..

its was a damn nervous day =/ when they annouce the 3rd and 4th winners..

we looked at each other and blurred..

then we realise we are either the 1st or 2nd!

fighting with SAJC.. =/

and when they annouce the runnerup is SAJC,

our hearts all skipped a beat! and believe it or not..

we were screaming a lot louder than the SAJC team because we realise...

we are the CHAMPIONS! :D

damn excitied till i cried =/

first time crying because of winning and not some thing sad.

:D hahas! the feeling was great~

although when we present,

we were nervous.. and the presentation got abit messy..

but nonetheless,

good job Xcapade! :D

I'm so glad we made it through~!!

soon we left the SMU building..

and was walking with dom to help him find cab.. cause..

he is carrying a extremely big gift basket from BRANDS! :D

well.. we ended up frm SMU to BUGIS's FU LU SHOU building.. =.=

crazy town that doesnt have any cab..

even if there is cab, they refuse to pick off from the road.

im like ' WTF ' , the cab drivers are always complaining no customer!

that is like super duper duper NOT TRUEEEE!

we braved the super hot weather and somehow made it..

had to call a cab in the end. =.= should hv done it from the start..

waste my time.. the cab fare is even better..

$20.80.

tat is how much it cost if I take cab frm sengkang to jurong with midnight charge.

well.. after all tat..

came home and was rather tired..

eat my late lunch and went to bed..

:D napped till night time then dota-ed away~!

monday going to get my front tooth done up :D

and then going out with sotong.. :D cant wait !

anyways, resigned from my work @ RC..

couldnt take the time constrain + low pay after all =/

gonna be free of the job in 1 month which is exactly when my holidays start..!

gonna go search for a new job already~ :D

woohoooos

Tuesday, February 2, 2010 11:22 PM

a new hairstyle :D

just got my hair chopped off today :D

wanted shoulder length. but thanks to my uniform...

it become collar length =/

but overall, i think it looks refreshing. :D

so yeah! new year, new resolution. :D

probably gonna keep short hair for quite some time :D

today project.

i blew my top off @ balqis and susan.

its time to speak my mind.

i seriously BTH.

please speak ur mind if u BTH me too k. :D

arghhh.

it feels better after speaking all the shit that is in my mind.

its hard being understanding and sensitive.

i can be sensitive and understanding but when u take me for granted,

i can really be a insensative and emotionless brat. :D

dun blame me when tat happens cos u asked for it. buahahahs.

and this post is 100% TRUE.

nice people oso have their limits.

mixture of two feelings.

Sunday, January 31, 2010 3:46 AM

saturday, 30 Jan 2010.
since the year started,
i have not had a decent saturday.
i checked back my posts.
seriously not a decent saturday.. until i was thinking is it a curse.
but i have been shown that it is not a curse.
if it is, someone alr broken the curse.
well.. the whole thing is..
my long awaited saturday.. was destroyed.
thanks to huiru jie.
make me so excited abt it. blarblarblar..
ended up? u abandoned me.
u had no idea how disappointed i was.
u had so much time to tell me beforehand.
and u waited till i asked u. which is less than 24 hrs to the outing.
i turned people's outings down. becos of?
becos u told me of the outing. and i really like hanging out with the people..
in the end? my anticipation were completely destroyed.
slept and woke up in a damn emo mood..
was damn moody. wondering why was my saturdays all crappy.

till Ariah's sms came and somehow saved me.
met up her with @ bedok..
then we went to macdonald near Nyessa's place..
and then 2 cousins of Ariah's bf came..
and we played monopoly deal :D
its a wonderfully addictive card game..
and i really like it a lot..
they made me laugh so much..
sorry i was quiet most of the times..
was thinking through some stuff.. hahas..
thanks for asking me along..
u really save me frm getting more and more moody rotting myself away @ home..

friday, 29 Jan 2010 :D

went out with Kylie..

wanted to watch movie but time was too rush..

so we went to arcade instead..

after tat.. gideon came..

hais.. stuff happened..

i hope the sunflower manage to cheer u up..

sorry but serene really duno wat else to do alr..

then went to NYNY dinner with youth group..

had much fun and laughter there :D

jaleb and janna is so cute :D

hahas.. after the dinner..

went to watch Legion with Kylie..

the movie totally sucks!

its a movie with a lousy plot~!

2 out of 5 stars.

after tat... went home..

and realised huiru jie set me aeroplane for supposingly sat's night soho.

reason? cos it turned into a class outing so yea.

im like 'wtf. wadeva man.'

sorry to say. im arent that understanding as u think i am.

i can be understanding if u didnt wait till i ask u then tell me.

u had the whole freaking day to inform me.. and u didnt bothered to.

u make me so disappointed with u la. thanks for bringing my hopes high.

seriously thanks arh.

u make me wonder abt my priorities again.

disappointments.

Thursday, January 28, 2010 9:38 AM

Thursday

I just realise later got Hr Mock Test... never study yet... omgggg..

and never bring book somemore... OMFG!

Now in AOA class.. why am i so free while everybody is busy with their assignments?

because.. i got no textbook :(

susan never come cause she isnt feeling well..

and ariah probably never come because of overslept or smth..

now sitting alone.. day dreaming.. dazing.. wasting time away..

gonna have a new blog skin up by today :D

wanted to change it but cant seem to load the page @ sch..

probably do it when i reach home..

later after sch.. if ariah comes.. xcapade will go Jurong IMM to shopp..

for our event materials..

but if she never come.. i probably gonna go home sleep..

getting more and more tired recently..

cant wait for Friday and Saturday to come..

Friday going NYNY with kylie + youth group..

then going aunt's place at night..

Saturday shld be going out with Ariah, Nyessa they all :D

then at night gonna go SOHO with huiru jie and weibeng kor..

serene wants the rain to come.

please flood Singapore today.

Wednesday
Crazy long day.
Ariah came, Susan came too.
we did our LPD presentation..
and so unfortunately, we are the first team to present AGAIN~!!
hahas.. after the remaining groups presented..
finally can go home.. @ around 4pm+..
so so tired..
it was a long long day..
wanted to go swimming but found myself half dead.. way too tired..
so i just slacked at home.. and decided to replace my colleague for work..
had macdonald as dinner :D

Wednesday, January 27, 2010 9:34 AM

tuesday..
after sch was alr quite late...
went to meet Huiru Jie.. :D
went to eat Yuki Yaki with her.. :D
eat a lot of beef :D yum yumm..
terriyaki beef.. :D
the ball food all not nice one!
the cuttlefish, prawn, pork ball all... CMI. (cannot make it.)
well... the food was still great overall.. eat until damn damn fun~
then we had ice cream too! :D
made our own ice cream.. in the end, i had 5 different flavours!
it was deliciousss~ with wafer biscuits :D
we eat and eat for 3 hours+ in total.. amazing huhs..
eat until damn food.. went home and started doing projects..
ended upp.. by 12am+ finally manage to finish LPD ppt..
but i didnt sleep until 4am+ because the stress just kept me awake..
so many things to do.. so so little time..
the stress is KILLING meeeeee.. :(
just hope SAT & FRI will come~
its gonna be a dead fun weekend~ weeeheeee~ :D:D:D
pubbing & dinneerrr :D yippeee. time to unwhine before i explode!

mondayy.
went out with kylie after school :D
it was a day of fun and weirdness~
meet her and go to AMK Hub..
to book NYNY for this friday's dinner.. 20 people worth of seats ><..
hahas. its cfm gonna be a fun day this saturday~
went to crystal jade to see cakie cakie~
then.. at first she wanted to watch tooth fairy..
but Gideon was late.. and couldnt make it in time..
and Kylie was like super duper pissed. =/
and some crappy stuff happened @ toast box while we were eatingg..
after Gideon reacheed.... Kylie didnt talk to him at all sia.. =
it was damn weird.. im like stuck in the middle..
we walked around aimlessly.. and later head to Kylie's place..
then Chubby and Tiffy got into trouble ><..
and then Kylie get farther pissed.. =/
CHILL k :D serene is heree..!
then i went home.. was freaking tired.

longg week

Sunday, January 24, 2010 11:18 PM

well.. the weekends was spend at home.. resting and chilling :D
sunday went swimming.. although my leg and hand still hurt..
but i like it when swimming :D as if all the boundaries are all gone :D
feeling of freedommm!
hahas :D:D:D
after tat had lunch with family then went library alone.. :D
serene learn that.. friends & teammates cant really go hand in hand..
Ariah, im sorry that i made u sad :(
i really wanna make u happy always.
i wanna be ur happy pills too.

the above 3 photos.. :D

was taken on 22-Jan-2010 :D

went to my dentist appointment..

it was a painful trip :( damn pain..

gonna be going for another appointment in Feb to get my teeth done~

then went to meet Kylie.. had lunch..

and off we went to esplanade and saw a seashell exhibition :D

took couple of pictures with my lousy handphone camera :P

was quite pleased that the photos turn out not bad :D

gideon came.. then...

we had high tea at cookie muesum..

after tat.. we headed off to paya lebar and met kylie's mom..

for dinner @ aston.. after tat, we went to Kylie's youth group..

as usual, its fun being there :D the feeling is just good..

decided to go there more often from now on..

hopefully weekly :D

after tat went aunt's house then home sweet home after tat :D

bought cookies on thursday during breaktime.. before my group meeting :D

hahas. hope u guys liked it :D

SUBWAY COOKIES~

damn nice :D and highly addictive..

yummies~ :D alright.. thats for last week..

Monday, January 18, 2010 6:30 PM

thats my new ezlink card sticker :D cute bunny!
saw it on my way home and think its really really cute :P
hahas.. bought it and pasted it on my ezlink card..
today was having bad monday blues..
was late for half an hr for my HR class..
and the teacher was damn.... irritating..
he asked me a question and i duno the answer..
then he said ' go shopping for 30mins still duno the answer.. '
i was thinking 'wth..'
i was late because of my knee injury and the traffic jam. =.=
damn it.. this knee injury just make me so so tired everyday..
i guess cell regeneration makes people tired... and uses lots of energy...
yawnnns..
today is only monday.. how i wish tmr is friday alr. =x
siannn!

Saturday, January 16, 2010 11:32 PM

today. alot of shit happen. practically. since the last saturday i injuried myself..
everything have went haywired and shitty.
tmr maybe will write more..
todae i shld just let the quotes talk for me..
having a bad headache now.